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« on: 02/06/2025 at 05:13 »
Every snarl, every growl, every whimper and every desperate scratch against the old wood floor—none of it was the wolf. It was all Lorelei. Even with that intoxicating smell permeating the air, even with the hunger it caused, the wolfsbane held fast. It held the beast in place, but it had no control over Lorelei herself, reduced to her basest instincts.
Until Rocío Valdés had walked into the most secret corners of her life, control was not something she'd had to worry about. It had always been a given—a potion ingested routinely for seven days before the full moon. It had never needed to be anything more. But even at the best of times, Rocío turned Lorelei's self-control to dust. What surprise, then, that it did the same for the animal within her.
For even with her mind intact, tonight, Lorelei was a wolf. Not a monster, not a bloodthirsty beast, but an animal, still. And that animal wanted to get as close as it could to that person beyond this wall. To burrow beneath these floorboards to come out on the other side, with her.
(And maybe, even now, she also wanted to sink her teeth into her skin. Softly, carefully—only hard enough to bind them together forever.)
Something snapped near her ears and Lorelei leapt back, haunches raised. Then she saw Tala—growling, disapproving—and Dragomir—watching, bored.
Immediately, shame washed over her and Lorelei lowered her guard. Dark eyes rimmed with fur looked back to the wall. Still, she struggled to push back that irrepressible pull exerted by the mere knowledge that Rocío waited on the other side. But those terrible thoughts that had been intangible (yet undeniably real) just a moment before played through her head.
Now, she felt fear. For her own urges. For her own actions.
Lorelei looked back toward Tala, toward a mirror of herself, older, more experienced. This woman who called her by the name of a girl she'd once thought lost—one who remained forever seven years old, forgotten with the absence of her parents. This woman who cared more about her and her curse than anyone she'd met before. This woman who was hard on her, whose disappointment hit her like a brick. This woman she'd met only a year ago and interacted with very little since, but who was more a mother to her than the one who had claimed the title.
Dropping her head, Lorelei stepped away from the wall and toward the other werewolf. There was just enough give in her own chains to bridge the gap between them. With a whine in place of an apology and a huff to announce she'd given up, Lorelei curled up at her feet. Close.
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« on: 01/19/2025 at 05:02 »
Although in any other circumstance, Lorelei might have been happy to have Healer Bellestorm join her and Professor Dragomir out on their monthly treks to the Shrieking Shack, this evening, she felt anything but happy. She felt her feet drag against the soil, something her mother would think unbecoming.
(Something, she couldn't help but worry, Healer Bellestorm would also find unbecoming.)
Yet she couldn't help it. The absence of Rocío Valdés weighed heavier on her shoulders than it had on any of the nights before. And on those nights, the weight of it was already crushing her. There was more than Wolfsbane to blame for the circles under her eyes; every night she lay light in her sleep, waiting for the telltale click of heels against the dormitory floor. Alert to any sign that her roommate had finally returned. That she was no longer bent on avoiding Lorelei at all costs.
Heavier still was the weight of a jar in her bag. A new salve that had appeared on her bedside table. Proof that Rocío still thought of her—still must care for her in some measure, even if she did not care to stand in her presence.
Or, perhaps, it had been meant as a goodbye. One last gesture, for the road.
Whatever the meaning, she had it ready for the morning.
Sure as ever, Lorelei went through her usual full moon ritual. She found a sturdy pillar, surely reinforced with enough magic to withstand the pull of a giant, and wound chains too bind herself to it. Her wrists slipped into their manacles—loose, now, though soon enough they would dig welts into the skin of a monster, where they would remain come sunrise.
The Shrieking shack was dark, but to a werewolf, even in human form, that mattered little. Feeling the moment draw near, she looked to Billie, then to Tala, feeling the mounting apprehension that always came in these moments. As sure as she was of the blessing this curse had given her, doubt always crept in when sunset loomed close. With her guard so worn this time, it hit her all the harder.
As the moment approach, she felt goosebumps creep up her skin. Even without seeing the sun or the moon, her body knew their cycles well. The beast would always be ready to pounce, to seize its moment.
It started with the crack of bones, then the ripping of flesh as a thicker hide, coarse with black fur, sprang free, and a hitch at the back of a larger throat as teeth sprang free, sharp and laced with their eternal poison.
It ended with a whimper, as the beast sprang forth but Lorelei remained. Present, always, with the wolfsbane. Present to take control, present to feel the pain, present to remember it all in the morning. Present to smell blood on the wind, close—so very close— as well as gardenias and cinnamon and cigarettes and—
Rocío.
Another whimper came from the black werewolf as the person within realised with a pang that she was here. Unseen, maybe, but here, if she could only find out where. Lorelei, only an animal at the end of the day, began to sniff the ground. With what area her bounds allowed her, she paced the edges of the pillar, drawing close to the edge of the outer wall closest to her usual pillar.
So close.
The beast groaned, and then it began to dig, claws scratching loudly against the old floorboards, pulling out deep splinters and tearing gashes where the wood had grown softer with age.
So terribly close.
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« on: 01/18/2025 at 15:44 »
She didn't think that was exactly the compliment it sounded like, but what did it matter? Anders smiled and so did Lorelei, brushing off her own ignorance with a laugh. The Slytherin was well aware of the gaps in her knowledge. She didn't take those personally. Later, when they were alone and the music had long since ended, she would ask again, and she would learn.
Right now, there was too much noise, and there were far more pressing matters besides.
Anders' hands had found the way to her hips, helping them move in time with the music. Lorelei let herself be guided by their pull—from side to side and then, beat by beat, closer and closer forward. She could feel a charge in the air. The tension rising, a pressure permeating the room announcing a moment of change. She could smell the intent in Anderson's sweat.
Her own eyes gleamed, her lips twitching in a smirk that let her know that this time, Lorelei knew what the Gryffindor was about to do. She invited it. And when it came, she met it eagerly, with not a care in the world for prying eyes and their judgements.
(If her adoptive mother could see, she would scream, 'Merlin, what have you done?')
Lorelei expected a crescendo, a rising note to top off a perfect night. This kiss should have been like all the kisses that had come before, wild and electric, fueling the raw parts of her to clamor for control, to break down the walls of patience and perfection as they had so many times before.
But kissing Anderson Payne was not like kissing Rocío Valdés. It wasn't bad, not in the slightest, but it didn't pull at her heartstrings, didn't answer all her prayers, didn't change her life forever. It should have.
Really, there was no reason it shouldn't.
She wanted it to.
But hope as she might, it didn't. Still, Lorelei leaned into it, sought an answer on Anders' lips, seeking deeper when she didn't find it. When their lips finally parted, her search drew to an end. So, she hadn't found what she was looking for. That wouldn't keep her from trying again, later. Surely that spark, in time, would come. Maybe it wasn't always an immediate thing.
Yes, Lorelei decided. One way or another, she would find it. Anderson Payne would, eventually, provide the release she sought.
Her hand clutched Anders' shoulder, her arm tracing a possessive line up her back that kept their bodies close together.
"I'm glad you brought me here."
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« on: 01/17/2025 at 01:58 »
There was amusement in Anderson's eyes, sparked by Lorelei's question, but it didn't bother her. Though she was a pureblood, much of the world beyond the walls of Kensington Manor was new to her. Rare or common, so many of it was the same to her—all of it equally as precious so long as it was new.
This proximity between herself and Anders—that was not new, and yet, she coveted it just as much as this moment they both shared. It was not new; but it had been absent, lacking. For more than half her life, Lorelei Kensington had been deprived of something so simple as touch. Of all the currency at their disposal, love and affection, her adoptive parents had hoarded for themselves.
That summer, Lorelei had had her first taste. Rocío had laid her hands upon her skin at its most raw and it had been a deliverance. When it had all ended, when Lorelei once again became starved in the absence of those soft and disarmingly gentle hands, she discovered just how addicted she had become, how impossible it was to live without something so simple as the contact of someone else's skin against hers.
Though the crowd pressed in upon them, it was Anders she felt most acutely, pressing closest against her. No one else mattered; those other bystanders were nothing but an excuse for Lorelei to lean in harder, to greedily feel the warmth of the other girl pressed into her own. Though the room was sweltering already, Lorelei took it all in, craving ever more.
Anders was right—Lorelei really did need a reason to let loose. Far more so than she knew. It was freeing to unshackle herself from the sixth year dormitory, to be free of waiting, at least for one night.
These names, from Chuck Berry to Mimi Palmer, and even all the way to Zeppelin, were all alien to her. But Lorelei listened to the man on the stage, enraptured like a pilgrim to a prophet. She breathed this place in like a revelation.
(And Merlin knew it smelled like one.)
Then the musicians launched into a melody eclectic and electric that pulled the crowd to madness until it pulled them just as easily into a calm sway. Lorelei watched, entranced, leaning on Anders, who seemed just as eager to fill whatever space remained between them.
"This is Zeppelin,"
The words were screamed in her ears and yet, Lorelei had to replay them in her mind, unsure they'd heard Anders properly. Perhaps she had heard her. Perhaps she simply did not know the meaning of the phrase. She twisted back to put her lips near the Gryffindor's own ear.
"What's that?"
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« on: 01/10/2025 at 03:31 »
Lorelei felt so sure that this was the right decision. That this was what she wanted.
Right until two days before the scheduled date, when she thought about Rocío (though not for the first time) and couldn't shake the feeling that something had gone horribly, horribly wrong. As much as she tried to remind herself everything on that front already was horrible to an irreparable degree, the feeling followed her, impossible to escape.
With it, also came the hope that Rocío might show up and, again, Lorelei reminded herself that that was not what she wanted. That she deserved someone who made time for her and only her. Someone who had gone through a considerable amount of effort to plan an evening just for them.
Someone like Anderson Payne.
And so, when the time came, Lorelei held true to her promise, and was there to join Anders, embarking on their late night escapade. Luckily, as a prefect, she knew exactly who was meant to patrol the lakefront that night. It was her. So, barring any unpleasant surprises, the coast would be clear. Only a few weeks in, and Lorelei had come to expect very little in the way of surprises on evenings like these. Rulebreakers knew to stay well out of the way of patrolling prefects.
And tonight, they did just that. Slipping into Hogsmeade seemed almost too easy, and before she knew it, the pair of them were standing at the base of a stage, watching a group of Americans playing songs the likes of which she had never heard before.
Lorelei knew how to dance. Though she was rusty from lack of practice, she was a savant according to her instructor—though she must have been saying that merely to curry favor with the Kensingtons. But ballet did not translate well to these tunes. They lent themselves to fervor and madness; demanded the full release of joy, anger, and despair. There were no rules, no set steps. It was the closest Lorelei had come to feeling unabated freedom since that morning after the summer's second full moon—a memory so much easier to hold at bay with the pounding of the drums, the screeching of guitars and the hymns they sang onstage.
All too soon, it was over, at least for a moment, but Lorelei's heart still pounded.
"Having fun?"
"Yes!" She grinned, speaking louder than usual as her ears still rang. "This happens every week?"
Just a stone's throw from the castle, it was almost hard to believe Lorelei hadn't heard of this place or its music before. Almost—this was, after all, the sort of activity for which her adoptive parents would have her hide. That made it dangerous. That made it fun.
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« on: 01/02/2025 at 23:38 »
Lorelei wasn't often invited to attend these things alongside her parents, not unless they were hosted in the very halls of Kensington Manor. Her parents preferred to keep her where they could control her. Where they could parade her in front of guests then send her off to her room before the servants brought out the amuse-bouches. And yet, to her greatest surprise, when the invitation had come, Abernathy Kensington had turned to her and said, "You might as well come along." He'd also added that while she was at Hogwarts, they might as well ensure she made the right sort of friends, and insisted she not make a spectacle of herself. (Really, when had she ever?) "Thank you for hosting us," she said to the elder Dankworths as the Kensingtons made their entrance. They looked just as regal as their home, each one, much like her adoptive parents, the perfect image of upper crust pureblood society. For her part, Lorelei wore a shimmery cream gown, with a sweetheart neckline and a tight fit that perfectly accentuated her curves. Always one to revel in an occasion to show off, Lorelei felt both confident and beautiful as she stepped into Blackthorn Hall. Perhaps she'd dressed closer to gold than silver, but the glitter enmeshed with the fabric came close enough to satisfy the Kensingtons. This color had always suited her better anyway. Claiming a glass of lemonade, she turned to observe the partygoers milling about the grand estate. She saw her immediately. There, impossible to miss, impossible to ignore, vibrant and more breathtakingly beautiful than anyone else in the crowd. Without even checking that her parents were busy with their own acquaintances (though, by now, they surely were) Lorelei crossed the space between them in an instant. "I didn't expect to see you here." She said to Rocío as she wrapped her arm around Rocío's waist. To outsiders, a makeshift hug between two friends. To Lorelei, nowhere near close enough. Enthralled as she was, it took her a moment to notice the people around them. Caius, at Rocío's other side, and Katherine and another boy she believed to be another Ellewood-Luxe. Lorelei couldn't imagine anything that had been said before her arrival had been pleasant, which could only mean her arrival was timely. "Good evening, Caius," She said to her friend before turning to Katherine with a pleasant smile—one meant to diffuse whatever tensions were surely building. "Katherine, thank you for hosting us. Your home is lovely." And, finally, to the other boy. "I don't believe we've met. I'm Lorelei."
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« on: 12/04/2024 at 17:28 »
Despite her protests, Anderson continued to insist that Lorelei should take a dip in the pool, fully clothed or otherwise. The Slytherin frowned, wondering if this was a common practice among students. Regardless of who had to deal with the laundry afterwards, be it herself or a dutiful house elf, she was the one who'd have to squelch back to the common room in wet clothes when they were done.
"I just don't like the feel of wet clothes," She grumbled. "Or swimming, really."
She did find some relief in Anders' denying this was a date. Yet, despite the clear question, the answer still left doubt as to the Gryffindor's intent. Just because this wasn't a date, by virtue of being a spontaneous affair, didn't mean Anders wouldn't try to kiss her again.
And so she continued to war between her craving for fun, spontaneous adventure, and her need for clarity and control.
(And, perhaps, an instinctual desire to not drown.)
"I don't think all dates are dinner dates and fancy clothes," Lorelei supplied, trying to pull more definitions, more descriptions of intent, hoping Anders might draw a line between fun and romance so that Lorelei could decipher what in the world she was getting herself into. "But, no, I've never been on one."
And how could she, cooped up in her room for half her life? Camp Loki, and Hogwarts after it, had been the first places in which she'd been allowed to roam free among people her own age since she'd been whisked away from Nepal. There hadn't been enough time since then to get to know anyone enough to develop any date-worthy feelings. She eyes her insistent companion out of the corner of her eye, wondering if, in fact, they might have reached that point by now.
But she hadn't really had enough time to think that through, either.
And this did seem like the sort of thing one had to think about before taking a plunge.
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« on: 12/03/2024 at 15:53 »
Lorelei should have known her excuse was far too weak to deter the likes of Anderson Payne. Perhaps she should have told the truth about her waterborne abilities, but somehow, that seemed even worse than following along.
(Or it would, until the Slytherin was confronted with a pool that would swallow her whole.)
"Fish and bears are animals," She protested, though she followed nevertheless, pulled along by Anders' indomitable determination. "They have scales and fur. I, however, will not be stripping down in a school when Prefects and Professors are sure to start patrolling any minute now."
And the mere thought that Anders might have her do otherwise scared her a little. And yet she also knew that she would look far more ridiculous stepping into a pool (and likely drowning) in her full school uniform. There was no positive outcome to be found here, and yet, Lorelei followed all the same.
There was a promise of adventure in the air—the very type of adventure she had longed for when she finally found out she'd be coming to Hogwarts. And yet, good sense prevailed; she did not want to drown. If Anders said jump, Lorelei still had the gumption to ask why.
"I don't think it'll be quite as fun as you expect," Said Lorelei. "I've never been a fan of swimming." An understatement, or perhaps an outright lie, since she'd never had the occasion to find out.
With a quick twist, Lorelei slipped her arm free of Anders' grip. She stopped where she stood, at the landing of the staircase leading down to the dungeons, and looked at the other girl intently. Trying to figure out her intentions—now, as well as back in the Apothecary, the other day.
"Are you trying to take me on a date?"
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« on: 12/03/2024 at 02:12 »
Had anything ever existed quite so confusing as a kiss?
Lorelei had never had to ponder this question until one had landed, unbidden and unprompted, upon her lips. Even all these days later, she still didn't know whether she'd liked it. She still didn't know if she'd want more. It was all rather perplexing, and though try as she might to replay the scene in her mind, she couldn't imagine why Anderson had done it.
So far, the most likely explanation was because she could. But that was the sort of logic she usually applied to someone like Rocío Valdés, and surely, the universe wouldn't be so cruel as to put two such whirlwinds on her path. The next likeliest answer was that Anderson had simply wanted to. And through the Gryffindor's repeated attempts to track her down, Lorelei was settling closer and closer to that conclusion.
But she hadn't quite figured out whether or not she'd liked it, or whether she wanted to do it again. And of course, Anderson's doggedness outpaced Lorelei's hesitations.
"Loreliciousssss–"
"Anders," (Should she have used the diminutive? Too late, now…) "I was just on my way to study…"
She took a step back, intending to continue on her way. Her bag, angled between the two of them, served both as a barrier and a demonstration of her current workload. For once, she had to thank Ivansko for the mountains of schoolwork she'd thrust upon them.
"Let's go to that pool I heard y'all 'ave down here. I bet I'm a better swimmer than you."
"I'm sure you are," Lorelei, had, in fact, never learned to swim—a fact too embarrassing even to be used as a valid protest. Instead, she supplied, "I don't have a bathing suit."
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« on: 12/01/2024 at 04:20 »
September 14th 1972 Attn: Tala Bellestorm
Healer Bellestorm, this is Logaratchagi Chauhan. Do you remember me? From St-Mungo's. With the erroneous prescription.
My parents said I should refer to Healer Evensea if I have any questions, but I trust you more. And I have a question.
You said I need to take the potion for seven days leading up to the full moon. Is that inclusive of the day of the full moon, or the seven days before that?
i.e. this month: 20-21-22-23-24-25-26 or 21-22-23-24-25-26-27? Full moon is on the 27th but I guess you know that.
Also, you didn't specify a time? Morning? Night? Lunch? If sugar messes it all up, my guess would be before bed just to avoid accidents with meals?
Thank you,
Logaratchagi
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